Stuck was about the only word I could come up with right now. I am not overly motivated to write right now, but thought that if maybe I started writing, something good would come of it.
I have been stuck the last couple of weeks.. I haven’t done any specific workouts other than cleaning and organizing my house. I have been eating terribly… and just overall have felt like poo…..
I think because of stress that my pain has spiked and when it spikes I in turn eat badly and stop working out. All of that combined makes me feel worse than I was already. My brain has gone to mush and I have had no desire to get any work done or get back in to baking for my business. I am kinda glad that I haven’t had any orders, but we sure could really use the money right now….
I hate these times in life when you get in a bit of a rut and can’t seem to snap out of it. I like our new house, but we still have so much that we need to do to it, but no more money to put towards it. I still feel like I am living in someone else’s house. I guess because we have been renting for so long that it is hard to see this place as “ours” yet. I am glad that we were able to get a house that fits our needs and is a great size to grow in to for years to come. I am sure one day soon I will feel like it is really ours..
One good thing that happened last week was that I was finally able to buy a good juicer. I have been using it the past couple of days and just love it. I spent about 30 minutes this morning making a big batch of juice and it is nice to just pour and drink my fruits and veggies instead of having to chew all of them. And this morning, I actually didn’t drink my normal cup of coffee. I may have to soon though because I am starting to drag. But at least I didn’t wake up feeling the need for it right away.
I have also been looking in to a local co-op that has organic fruits and veggies that I can purchase. If I am going to be going through them more, I definitely need to find them at a hopefully better price and quality.
I want to snap out of this fog that I am in lately. I want to have the desire to work again, finish getting my house organized, and just feel better overall…. I don’t like how I feel right now and I think the kids notice too. They have been pushing every last button and them some lately. I know the move was a big change for them as well and they are just trying to find their place among the chaos that has been our house lately.
I have to say that writing this house has helped at least get some of the tension out. I am hoping for a better week and more clarity and less stress!!!!