If you have been following this blog for any sort of time, you would know that I used to run and a fairly decent amount. I had lots of races and kept signing up for more. I worked out/ran several times a week. But that was months ago. I haven’t really worked out all summer. Here and there I would get on my new folding indoor bike. Occasionally would get on the treadmill, but nothing consistent. Yes I have been traveling a lot. When I am not traveling it has been a struggle to keep up with everyday life and this blog. I always feel like I am running behind.
Each day is filled with feeling good for a bit, then goes downhill either because I ate something wrong or my body just gives out. Or it just starts out with not feeling good and gets worse throughout the day. It is so beyond frustrating. I need to start training for the Houston Marathon. Really I should have already started I mean after all I have got to work up to 26.2 miles. That still blow my mind that I am even thinking about running that far. Sure I have done 15+ half marathons, but this is double the distance all at once.
I am not going to back out of it unless something really happens and I get hurt, but now I sit and wonder where do I begin? How do I find the motivation to put on my running clothes and just start running? How can I get this broken body of mine to cooperate with me and not be so incredibly tired and worn down all the time? How do I figure out what foods I can eat to give me the energy and stamina that I need that won’t in turn make me sick?
My brother did just buy me a book that I am going to read to help guide me on what foods I can eat and function as a runner. But again that takes time to read and fully comprehend. I don’t always like cooking. I don’t always like meal prepping. We are out and about a lot so how can I have foods already with me?
Sorry if it sounds like I am whining. I am just so fed up with my body not cooperating. I hate that something I need in order to live is also one that makes me sick. I want to be able to eat whatever I want, but I can’t anymore. I have to be so careful.
I think it will help when the kids are back in school and I have some alone time to gather my thoughts. It will also help that I could get on the treadmill and blast my music without worrying that my kids will destroy my house or fight with each other.
Two more weeks until school starts. My goal for these next two weeks is to do my best with making sure I don’t “cheat” with foods. When I get all of the toxic foods out of my system I feel so much better. Just that darn sweet tooth gets in the way!! So this is where I will begin. This is where the marathon journey starts again. 🙂